My name is Ricardo. I'm 43, studied psychology in school but mastered humanity living life. I look like a guy who spends nights at the club but actually spend them writing poetry and playing chess. Ive lived in 5 countries and explored dozens of others, only to realize that the most sacred space isn't a destination but instead it is the space between two people that are fortunate enough to share the human experience together. At 43, Ive stopped looking at life through the lens of labels and started looking at it through the lens of energy.
Your time is your most precious and finite resource. We all have a limited supply and none of us know how much we have left. If you choose to spend a piece of that time with me, I intend to honor that. I believe that in the long walk of our souls, weve all traveled the spectrum of sexuality and desire. In this life, Ive arrived as a man who values the human experience above all else.
Come for the blue eyes and the ink but stay for a conversation that remembers were both human. Im just guy who writes poetry and loves chess that likes to hang out here in his briefs, sharing some of my time with you while making sure the vibe stays warm while the world sadly remains a bit cold. Why am I here?
My reason for being here is likely very different than most other broadcasters. While making some money on the side is one of the factors (albeit a small one), my motivation is far deeper. When I was going through a very dark time in my life during the past few years, I decided to try broadcasting here after having only used this site beforehand to watch others. I only did it a handful of times and didnt take it seriously before I simply stopped.
But what I felt during those broadcasts was something I had needed so badly without even knowing. It wasnt related or motivated whatsoever to hedonistic desires or egotistical pats on the back. It wasnt the monetary result that showed me how much potential there was had I actually taken it seriously. It wasnt ego or feeling desired.
It was much more profound, and maybe even esoteric, motivational factor that crosses ones mind before actually digging deep to find the true source of reason. I felt seen. After having spent what had felt like an eternity as an overly introspective, self-loathing ghost, invisible to the world but centerstage in my own overly-active and analytical mind, feeling seen by others was nothing short of healing.
Having the attention and focus of others after spending so much time feeling lonely and unseen in the dark felt rejuvenating. I didnt realize I was in the dark or understand that I had put myself there until I started to feel the warmth of the lightness later on. And that light, I truly believe, came from the new and reborn feelings of feeling present, seen, desired, and even loved by fellow humans who had no idea I was broadcasting from the depths of my solitary confinement.
My motivating factor for broadcasting is to be the person I had needed but never really had while living in a state of self-imposed exile. I needed to be seen more than anything else because the only person that was seeing me during that time was the reflection in the mirror, and I truly hated who looked back at me.
I share this with each and every person reading these words right now because it is ok to admit these feelings and confront them without letting cognitive dissonance convince you otherwise. Yes, it is wonderful to watch broadcasts on this site by people that enchant us or make us happy. However, the Internet is overflowing with sexual content that is free and easily accessible. People are here, whether they know it or not, to feel loved and desired. They are here to connect. And they are here to be seen.
I am here to be who I needed and didnt have. To be the one who starts guiding me in the dark to the path the leads to lighter, brighter days. I am here to be here for whoever crosses my path. I see you. And I am here for you. I wrote a poem that is very relevant to my experience here. Ask me to send it to you and I'll happily do so <3.
Your friendship.
