At three in the morning he tells me what he has been not saying, and it comes out flat and careful the way everything he says does.

RabI have wanted this since I was fourteen and I have spent every year of it making myself smaller so that nobody would file me for wanting it.

TamsinAnd now?

RabNow I have had an hour of it and there are four hundred students outside that door whose whole week is being watched by four clerks, and I cannot decide whether this is the best thing that has ever happened to me or the most unfair.