It is the first hour in two years I have not been able to feel four windows on my back, and I do not handle it well, and he is patient about that in a way that makes me want to apologise.

RabNobody is writing this down.

TamsinI know.

RabI keep checking. I keep looking at the blind to make sure it is down.

We stop talking after that, and the floodlights hum on the outside of a closed blind until well past midnight.