Hii there xo, Nice of you to visit my profile! I'm inexperienced, driven by fantasies, tend to be submissive, looking to be led. I'm really on a journey here to explore my female side - Francesca. While a lot of the push for it comes from sexual fantasies that I've had for a long time I recently, while being abroad, spent the first time a whole evening all made up and dressed as a women outside, chatting with like-minded people I didn't even know. There I felt so completely accepted and realized how good and whole it felt. So now I'm wondering how to extend on that side as well.
I'm a crossdresser and still learning. I like to try and look as feminine ("passable") as possible as I'm not much into extrovert drag-style looks or similar. That doesn't mean it can't be sexy.. it should be, but it's a balance that I'm trying to strike and I don't think I hit it just yet, though some looks l like. Sexy but also classy? Or maybe very casual top layer and much more sexy beneath..
Much is to be learnt. For instance I still haven't found a foundation that matches my skin well - yes I care about this but haven't mustered the courage to ask for help on this in a store. I'm lucky I have some more feminine traits like thin legs, arms, hands and not being very muscular,, have smaller feet too (42ish, sometimes 41 fits too). Off course I shave completely when made up. But then other parts I need to figure out how to best hide, like the hint of a belly that I do have - wouldn't it be nice if that was on the hips instead? I still think, better a slight belly than having muscles which immediately look very manly. But then how to move, behave as a more sub and shy fem persona? How to talk? Can you get me to express myself more openly? I do own a set of silicon breasts to wear and several clothes, lingerie, shoes but still looking for more.
A lot of what I do happens behind closed walls at the moment and to go out, I need to be better at it still. That also makes me a bit hesitant to meet up, especially in areas where I could run into people I know. So I'm especially considering testing things in the open in a different place, city, country like I've already done it before. Maybe we can meet there too? I'm thinking of spending a whole vacation as a fem.
I'm also curious to meet others like me, exchange, support each other? On the more sexual side I used to think I'm more hetero than anything but with these fantasies and maybe also as an influence of hypno videos which I have discovered as a huge turn on for myself I'm definitely also turned on by males today, especially dominant ones and it seems older men too..
Examples that turn me on: Educate me, make me submit. Use me, sissification, hypno... I am owned by Miss Ariana @arianasaint.
